Tuesday, 27 December 2011

How I Met Her Mother

When I was in the bus waiting for Bombay to arrive,I wondered if I was doing the right thing. No,I wasn’t regretting it already but when u fight with ur parents u really start thinking if ‘this’ decision was worth a fight. I was visiting my cousin sister in Bombay.
History knows it we haven’t been much of a sister for the past whatever years. Maybe because of an age gap ,I don’t know. From all the childhood memories I could recall she would always nag me,from health to height to marks I scored in mathematics and science to how fluentlv I spoke English etc etc. She used to sound perfect and made me feel inferior . Thus ,I would always feel mom likes her more and so I hated her more. (Not like I’ll kill u kind of hatred but rather envying.)
Only this time I was hoping for a change because I needed one. As had it been decided on the world’s shortest conversation ever, she came to receive me. The time she saw me, I knew she would begin judging and I HATE BEING JUDGED, SPECIALLY ON LOOKS! I was expecting a “oh my god! After so many days. u haven’t changed a bit.!” (Which in normal straightforward language would mean- u are still as fat as u were some years ago!haaaawwww!!) But she took me by surprise. She didn’t utter a word that was offensive in any ‘polygonal’ way. Instead she was happy like really happy to see me and that I am so independent and that I do whatever I wish to and that ,that I have learnt to fight for what I want! I just gulped. And gulped and gulped some more. It was too much to take in  at one go. Was she the same person or am I dreaming, that too a good dream?
We reached home ,laughing like crazy. It was a pretty place where she lived. A sea facing house. I could feel the salty breeze, the sand, the sunset .she was playing with her daughter while I was standing near the balcony. world seemed a better a place from her window. But as human nature I was lingering on one thought. What had happened to her? I mean not a single comment? Not even one? As much as I would have hated her if she did it, some part of me wanted her to do it.
Things were going unusually fine when suddenly my niece fell from swing and broke her arm. It was a terrible thing. She was was badly injured. When she walked in with her injured arm, her father was shocked, I froze and hence  the silence was broken when my di screamed. She was shivering more than the poor seven year old kid.
With whatever sense I could grab ,I tried to help them but that one moment when I saw her face red, eyes glistened with tears she looked different. No ,I don’t mean it in a funny or pulling her leg kind of a way that ‘oh hahaha ur face is red ,u are so hilarious!’ but what I mean is she appeared different, like she did when she came to pick me up and appreciated  me instead of nagging.
In front of me,was not my sister but my niece’s mother.Someone I had been totally unfamiliar with and someone I started respecting from that moment onwards. It was my niece’s mother that I had liked spending time with for past days . My niece’s mother who was no more of a nuisance to me. My niece’s mother who appeared nice and warm and affectionate. it was her who cried when her child got hurt and it was her who tried to control the sadness and pain to show so that her child doesn't freak out.I had never seen this side of her.. I’m not saying ‘oooh become a mother and u will be a beautiful woman from within and blah blah.’ Who am I to say?! Infact I might just be the last person who would believe it.But its amazing how life grows on u and u change, for good or for bad and u don’t even realise. Somehow Motherhood had embellished the woman in my sister and now she was more than just a pretty face.

Incase u are still wondering ,my niece is now doing just fine and so are her loving parents.

Wednesday, 21 December 2011

a note to my laptop.

There is nothing better than to love the same person who loves u. And that’s why I want to confess .love you my old, second hand not always working laptop. With respect to all the words I designated u with, I still love you.
I love u because half of ur features are screwed.
I love u because more than half of ur keys don’t work.
I love u because ur touch pad irritates me at times.
I love u because when I am finally not supposed to be with u ,u started typing ‘yyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy’ on ur own and kill me. Almost.

I love u because ,u never let me type 'you' with a 'y'.
I love u because u get me glued to ur screen.
I love u because u made my eyesight weak.
I love u because u make me a social bird.
But most importantly…
I love u because having u makes me want to write.
I love u because whenever someone else uses u ,u simply don’t work.
I love u because u don’t let me work when I don’t want to.(which is not rare.)
I love u because u tend to scare me when I can’t get ur anti virus fixed.
I love u because u let me watch Castle  and Dexter whenever I want to.
I love u because  u like all other technologies, never ditch me.
I love u because u never let me leave u.
I love u because with u I sometimes find hope.
I love u because u don’t shout back.
I love u because u make me realize,I am romantic  too,u know?!
I love u because u were always with me.
I love u because ,u were my dad’s and he still loves u.

And since I cant help but be lame-
 You out of all were always there ‘in sickness and in health, in happiness and in sorrow. AMEN!’
Thank you.

Monday, 19 December 2011

heart of mine

‘lucky me!’ he thought. With early exit of his faculty just like yesterday and the day before, he could leave too. As if his absence would really matter.
The idea of ‘chillin’ with his friend  was making him skip 2 or maybe 4 steps ,almost making him run. Usually he would go out, crack a joke or two and probably together they leave to their common adda.
‘where are they today?’ he thought as his eyes were busy searching for his friends in between all the familiar faces till they finally stopped at a girl, he thought he knew . He saw her struggling while trying to get out of the auto ,noticed the unsynchronized movement with both of her legs. He vaguely moved towards her for help.Until he saw her face.

The morning sun woke her up just the usual. The  cold breeze was whispering in her ears,she was loving the moment of how the sunlight kissed her skin and made it glow but she couldn’t wait to go out. 30 hours were quiet a lot to spend on ur bed, doing nothing.
“I have to see  a doctor.” That was her final, stubborn word before any one of her friends became  ‘the mummy’ and started screaming and left her alone in her room. Only this time they agreed.

   The known face he saw ,still was waiting to be named in his head. He had seen her before; their eyes had met quite a few times that now it made him uncomfortable. ‘No. Not her .’He thought when it suddenly dawned on him. He took back his steps, turned and crossed the busy road.
‘of course they can never be on time.’ Diverting his thoughts somewhere else, trying hard not to look at the questionable side of the road.

      Finally! She was surprised how the swelling around the sprain part became less. She was walking or rather stumbling but at least some movement! They stopped in front of the college, when she saw him. He seemed perfect to her, it was funny how the sunlight made his shirt look ‘whiter’. It felt nice, it felt warm. A smile that she just couldn’t resist promted above her dimpled ching matching her glad, gleamy eyes.
Little did she know that it was not going to be the moment that she had run in her mind several times.
Their eyes met. She read his face blank .Not an atom of emotion, not even a frown. But before she could make out what exactly was what, he moved away and then it hit her like a big yellow school bus.
It seemed her secret was out. Nothing was said but everything could be felt. Suddenly her heart was paining more, more  than her leg ever did. She felt her stomach diving into a whirlpool that was taking in all the organs inside too.. Within seconds she had flashbacks of moments she now thought she had over-read. Her brain was processing this new stage faster than her heart was pumping blood. She doesn’t remember how she entered the college, doesn’t remember how she reached the college doctor, can’t recall anything that much after she had seen his face. She felt a sense of disgust in his look now.
Yes she had liked him, but never did she want him to know about it. That was the way it was supposed to be, then why this? For all she wanted, this could never have been it.Not yet.



this is a fan made video of the song 'heart of mine' by Norah Jones.(was originally by Bob Dylan).
love the lyrics of this one.Particulary when it goes - 'don't let him know..'

hope u got what i wrote.
-me.

Sunday, 18 December 2011

Its ‘desserting’ in here!
So  here we are again.
after my laptop's weird sickness of vomiting ‘y’ everywhere possible (no kidding.everywhere that laptop prompts a cursor,my keyboard’s love for’y’ would manifest in the most sacriest way!) ok.whatever..
I can NOW finally  write!
Exactly what is that I felt like writing again?!
I guess my sprained leg, my  weird head which is making me feel blond every passing day,my uncertainty of future, my-not-so-direct-choice of career , and the helplessness of understanding-what is it that is heavily consuming my head ?!

these are something’s that keep happening with me often and all that I do to it is well, either sleep over it or EAT!(u couldn’t have agreed more if u would have seen me)
and as well as u would know how amazing it is to sleep off ur problem ,I suggest try the other option.
Here are some awesome suggestions to what u should relish your mind with. And trust me when I say I talk with experience. :D








1.               Chocolate.
When u have had enough (of things u think is not worth giving much thought too) ,hear no more see no more.JUST indulge urself into a whirlpool of chocolate.
A whole world of chocolate desserts are waiting to be paid and ‘yummmed’ at every bite.I don’t even need to mention!
But as far as my opinion goes,The best way to enjoy it at home can be no better than NUTELLA!
A mouthful or maybe a spread on ur bread. Have it with fresh cut straberries or even a sad home baked cake, nutella can change ur life at that moment. ;)
2.Blueberry cheese cake
Just look at this picture.
don’t u just get  what I am trying to say. but first pick up ur jaw from the ground.
just by looking at it I can feel how my spoon will cut through the smoothness of the cheesecake and how when I put it in my mouth ,it will entirely melt  while I m still rolling it with my tongue.
The syrup,the cheese, the crunchy blueberry.its a bite of blissful life.
One thing for which I might ,I just might leave chocolate for.


3.Waffels
One waffle and  a million ways of enjoying it.it might just get a bit sweet for some but that’s best part of it.u can have ur own customised waffle!
have it with caramel or maple sauce,fresh fruits along with it too can do a lot of justice!
Have it the way u want and explore each bite.(the crispness  is the charm)

4.Tiramisu cake
My own way of eating coffee!I remember calling it -coffee fudge cake for half of my life.Now,i wish to write no more about it  but just that its mouthwatering and if u haven’t had it yet,2012 is on a roll. BETTER HURRYYY!!


5.Trifle pudding

One fine day in the 21st century ,when my mom really felt like cooking she made trifle pudding for us.
Do I still need to describe how my mom got horrified and still thinks twice before pursuing her passion in cooking?!

6.Brownie
                      







What can I write about this that has not already been read or experienced.Another love of any foodie's life.The smell,the sound,the crunch of nuts ,the first image comes to ur mind hearing the name,all speak for itself.
But Just a thought ..
What if brownie was a girl? And how hilarious would it get when that brownie gets upgraded to ‘sizzling brownie ‘!?
                 *’lamism ‘strikes again* my apologies!:P
7.Sundaes
That’s  a glass full of nostalgia with scoops of different flavours of ur childhood. When u know u love sundaes ,u know the kid u once were still lives with u. Still.

                                                                      




8.Mousse
my own ‘chocolate jelly ‘ fantasy! Its ‘one’ of the most delicious thing ,the Mexicans made !
and oh! I almost missed. Its sooo easy to make! Melted chocolate, whipped cream and if u want it for ‘long term’ add some gelatin and u are sorted!

9.Tarts
These are……. berry cream tarts!!
Delicious ,creamy ,available in different sizes (lol) and  verrrry easy to finish off!;)

10.Muffins and doughnuts
HAH!i don’t think it can match up with the charisma of any other dessert  mentioned above,but doughnuts and muffins are just amazing in their own sweet way!awefully good as a snack.and quiet affordable.


So that’s 10 perfect ways to get away from ur life! next time u feel u need to sleep off ur problems,DON’T.Help ur legs ,go out and do a favour on ur calories!
I know!i know!Happy to help. :D

the new foodie in town!

Sunday, 21 August 2011

being an indian..

Yes I’m an Indian .yes I m a hindu.
No I don’t say that with any proud,
Because our deeds have not been any less violent or loud.
Yes I belive in  god but not the differences,
yes I understand the past hardships but not the circumstances.
No its not fair neither is it acceptable,
But differences unite and in a way that its commendable.
Yes I m an Indian .yes I m a hindu.

Yes we are cajoled to conclusions,
No we don’t accept them.
Yes we did snip away lives as solution,
No we will never accept them.
yes I am an Indian.yes I am a hindu.

We  say we respect all religion ,
We say we believe in unity,
We say we are together against terrorism
But where did we forget communism?
We do not preach for the souls but for self,
Our holy books have conveyed messages better to the shelves.

Yes I am an Indian. Yes I am a hindu
And I m not proud.
But as a part of insecure,scared mob here I say it..’jai hind’!

P.S.-this is just my thought and a whole new side that i discovered of myself after watching Parzania.i was moved!

Thursday, 26 May 2011

A friend convinced to write something another asked me to write any shit..so here it is..hope you have come across worse,'shittier' and shorter first blogs....

 10th aug'199X
when every one was expecting a boy i just smashed my way out, giving everyone goosebumps for their lifetime ...though my parent's were never biased  and all but..OKAY..wateva.. my point..
SHIT HAPPPENS!!

3 YEARS later.i went to school...16 years and 6 months later (board exams) i was regretting that day..2 months later i was in more remorse!
...SHIT HAPPENS!!


18 years later (from birth :D)..i was growling over the fact that its a 'no- no engineering' for me ..and so after 18 years and a struggling 8months later i was in MY college!
by the time i hope you've realised..SHIT HAPPENS!!!


and now after all those years(actually its not too long from the last para but i cant calculate..shit happens!?)
all the things and moments collaborated and ended up winding  me into argument/denial/disagreement/kinda successful persuasion ..and finally into BLOGGING!!
and hence now i write (well..type) and you would agree..SHIT HAPPENS!!




p.s.-this post was supposed to be self-introductory!oops!